I feel you everyday trying to hold me back. I know that you are near and just waiting to leap out at me when I am feeling insecure. You do your best to hold me back from living the life that I want to live. I know you come from the past experienced of failure that I can’t let go of. I know you will show up when I feel I’m about to be judged by others who don’t really know my story, but knowing they may not agree with me scares me to not get over you. I know you have the ability to pull , tug and twist my heart to the point where it beats to fast and has a pain that paralyzes and this makes me powerless to you. I hear you in my head telling me “Why do think that’s possible” , “What makes you think you are smart enough”, “You failed at this before”, “Just give up before you embarrass yourself”, and so many more negative statements float in my head because of you.
Well I am here today to tell you, fear I no longer will allow you to lead me. I am strong enough now to lead my own way through my life. This is my journey not yours. I am not who I was years ago or even who I was yesterday. Yes you are right I have failed and I have been judged many times. I have hurt myself and others with my choices. I have done things in my past that I am not proud of, but this does not define me. My past gives me the opportunity to grow, learn and be better with what I have been through. So as of today fear you will be left in the past. I continue daily to grow stronger in who I want to be from the lessons you have shown me. I am now set free and no longer feel weary of burdens you have thrown at me.